More Balls.

It seems that balls will be re-occuring this year in my notes.  Today it is purely the metaphorical balls that represent courage or courageous stupidity some may say.  At my office workers are cutting down a few trees and as I see the worker dangling from a rope that I wouldn't hoist a sail with it occurred to me that it must take some 'balls' to do that on a daily basis.  Weilding a chainsaw and cutting through sections of the tree that easily weigh 5 times his own weight while dangling 20' in the air would certainly put me into sheer verdigo.

 

I wonder what he thinks of my job, does he look at the guy in the office and say that sure looks easy?  Or does he think that working for commission and dealing with rejection everyday must take a lot of 'balls'.  Does he see me knocking doors in his neighborhood and go 'glad I don't have to do that, it sure takes some 'cajones' to sell cemetery property door to door?'  These are the things that make me wonder.

 

 

Jan 17 2010.

So i havent written in a while which has now fully broken my only new years resolution which is to write something here everyday. But I thought I'd ad something here tonight as everywhere I turn I am hearing about the plight of Haiti. Right now the world or from my perspective the United States is extending their long arm to avail bail out a small and inevitably doomed country in spite of their own woes. I know that at some point we will realize that our own cicvilization rests in our ability to take care of our own first to pay our debt to the guaranteer's of our financial stability but for now the worl should revel on our arrogance as wr thumb those lenders in their face and take credit for giving their money and resources to Haiti. Go US.

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Jan 17 2010 65 rainy

So i havent written in a while which has now fully broken my only new
years resolution which is to write something here everyday. But I
thought I'd ad something here tonight as everywhere I turn I am
hearing about the plight of Haiti. Right now the world or from my
perspective the United States is extending their long arm to avail
bail out a small and inevitably doomed country in spite of their own
woes. I know that at some point we will realize that our own
cicvilization rests in our ability to take care of our own first to
pay our debt to the guaranteer's of our financial stability but for
now the worl should revel on our arrogance as wr thumb those lenders
in their face and take credit for giving their money and resources to
Haiti. Go US.

Jan 11 2010. 76 deg

Crazy warm winter as I and sure you can tell by the temperature in my
posts bmaybe that's why we are so busy in the mortuary. I've had the
most amazing day, it was challenging and full of problems but at the
end of it all everyone left a little better than they came in.

Jan 10, 2010 76 degrees beautifull

I jokingly told my manager I was going to quit today and go sailing instead.  She smiled and said she'd join me.  It put me at ease about some of the crap that's going on at work right now, just a small sense of humility, empathy, and an understanding of where someone is coming from.  Putting people at ease is the greatest gift I believe anyone in public relations can have.  Being able to look them in the eye, upset, angry, grieving, or whatever emotion is taking hold of them.  Ensuring them their feelings are valid and trying to see where they are coming from regardless of how you feel personally about their views is the key. 

 

I just got in from doing something just like that.  The family was upset with me, I made a mistake, they are mad, no getting around it.  I could make excuses or tell them it's no big deal but that won't do.  Simply coming to them admitting the wrong and validating their frustration always seems to lower the tension of the situation, I don't know how I picked this up because in all other situations I tend to infuriate people but here I got it right.

 

 

Jan 9 th 2010. Eve 68 deg

Sitting here at the Vault A somewhat hip bar in Redlands smoking a
cigar and waiting for someone to ask me if I want a drink. Sad really
but the bad will be starting early and since Im not hip Im early
enough to have skipped the cover. I've always like this place it's but
up into lot of small different atmospheres. Right now Im sitting in
the patio where smoking is acceptable. The whole patio might be 500
square feet but regardless a full band will be firiing up here making
the decible level near intolerable for these middle aged ears.

Inside is a nice bar reminiscent more of a coffee shop than a bar.
Continuing around the patio it opens up to a cmall courtyard maybe 20
feet wide with 3 story building towering over it on all sides like a
super minature devils canyon. There's a small door on the right that
tekea you into a seperate buildingwith a satellite bar downstairs at
the narrow stairs. Going up stairs you find a colege like loft with
ratty velvet and leather furniture strune and mistatchex throughout
complimented by the aged origi al Rex brick of the century old
building surrounding the space.

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Jan 7 2010 73 degrees

Somebody presented me with the revelation that thin people don't eat
salads. Of course they don't if I was thin I would eat this shit
either.

I'm going through a time of serious discontent with my job, the
complication of the position, managements apparent lack of empathy for
the difficulty of our job has placed me square in the the dissatisfied
quadrant of life. It's important that I keep my job but I can't tell
you how bad I want to just walk out of there.

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Jan 5 2010. 76 degrees

Frankly I feel like I am a child in another man's body. I feel very
detached from the amount of responsibility that I have. That's why I
take a lot of credit and tend to do. Bit of Crowing about my successes
I truly feel like 'no way, did I just do that, now way!'.

Oh yeAh. "Excellent!"

1/4/10 about 73 degrees in CA

I haven't written in a couple of days.  Don'y know why certainly there was time it more or less slipped my mind.  Today was my first day back to work in five days the usual nonesense still ensues.  We are still not hanging anything on the new walls which means that necessary boards used for tracking are still tucked away in some closet somewhere and other necessities are leaning against cubicles on the floor making the whole office look messy.  Not sure what the plan is but think the manager is more interested in just seeing how everyone deals with the chaos.  It's her own little joke.

 

New years was good and the boy and I took his new Land Sailor up to El Mirage for it's first run.  The wind wasn't cooperating terribly but it was nice to go somewhere so peacefull.  After a few minutes of arriving I was sitting on the tailgate of my truck and could hear the ringing in my ears that inevitably has developed by the incessant and never ending noise in my life.  Even at night I don't escape it as my wife has to sleep with the fan on.  AARGG.